I should be sleeping. But somehow I feel that if I sleep, I’ll lose momentum (of what exactly, I don’t know) or that I’m wasting daylight (nightlight). I’m being haunted yet again by the desire to do so many things. I’m considering continuing my French classes but if I go to my previous school, I’ll be missing 1/5 of the lessons this upcoming term. I could try the other institution, the one I’ve wanted to enrol in even back in Manila, but I’m not sure of my level and their schedule and honestly, they intimidate the crap out of me. I promise I’ll settle this one by tomorrow. I am also dying to book a trip abroad. But, I don’t have any more leaves and it’s not like I don’t have any pending travel plans for this year. I should probably concretize those stat to soothe my itchy feet. And then there’s the Governors Ball which is perfect for #2 on this list (great line-up and in my favorite city!) but I would most likely hold it off to next year, coz a) leaves and b) funds. And as for the rest of my life, well, there’s just so many options! Believe me, I am really thankful for everything but it scares me how saying yes to something means turning down something else that I want, too. I’m telling myself to calm down and take it one thing at a time. One day at a time, one decision at a time. It has been working well for me; I am less anxious than I was a year ago, so yay! But at the same time.. I still want to do so many things! I’m telling myself that today’s hustle and and sacrifices will pay off. And that delaying gratification will work wonders not just on my growth, but on the grand scheme of things. But for now, I should be sleeping.
Sweet dreams, everyone!
