SO THERE IT IS, THE BIG 3-0. One of my good friends, Arnold, said my hashtag should be #thirtyflirtyandthriving in honor of the movie 13 Going on 30. I laughed and said no way, coz a) CLICHE and b) THIRTY, yes.👵🏼 FLIRTY, always.💃🏻 But THRIVING? That’s the big question mark. There are days that I…
ANYONE ELSE END 2018 ON SUCH A HIGH only to have the first week of 2019 thrust you to rockbottom? 2019 (so far) had me exclaiming in disbelief/shock/exasperation, “anong nangyari?!!!“ far too many times in a short amount of time. I thought I was finally(!) in that elusive “good place” when November/December rolled out.. but then come…
ON THE LAST DAY OF 2018, I look back on the year that was with lyrics from Ariana Grande: “that shit’s amazing”. Exactly a year ago, I referred to 2017 as shit while it was happening, actually great when looking back. I guess this realization became a guide for me as I lived out 2018.…
DEAR YOU, THIS LETTER HAS BEEN A YEAR IN THE MAKING. A year because this letter entails a certain finality that I’ve been avoiding, because my general fear of making the wrong decision sometimes paralyses me, and at the same time because this ultimately means letting YOU go, forealz. It took a year, but here…
TODAY, I AM ALLOWING MYSELF TO BE SAD. I will loosen the tight grip I’ve held on my heart and let the pieces come undone. I will admit that all along I’ve feigned ignorance on the cracks, pretending that if I squeezed the pieces tight enough, it will be whole again. Today, I will allow my…
WANT ANYTHING FROM SINGAPORE? My mom’s text read. I gave it some thought before ultimately replying “Mmm, no.” Truth is, there were a hundred and one things I wanted from Singapore but nothing my mom could check-in on her flight back to Manila. It’s been over a year since I was last at the Little…
YOU KNOW HOW I KEPT ON BABBLING ABOUT REST LAST AUGUST? Well, guess what, the first week of September was spent mostly in bed. Long story short, I acted on this really stupid impulse of trying to stop a cargo case from toppling over and got my hand caught in the middle of 2 60-kg…
THIS MORNING, I WAS GREETED BY ANXIETY. I normally would’ve brushed it off with a change of environment and getting a literal move on, like swimming or driving around, but as luck would have it, the bug I’ve been fighting off the past week has fully manifested. I considered drowning the nagging feeling by scrolling…
THIS RAINY WEEKEND WAS A BLESSING TO ME. For someone who cannot and will not slow down, I was forced to take a break. My mind was all “go, you can do it, you can squeeze a million and one things to do today”, but my body was like, “nah” before completely shutting down. And it’s a…
I’M SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM WITH A BAG OF CHEETOS BESIDE ME and I’m thinking to myself how pretty sweet life is. Mind you, today is a WEDNESDAY, meaning I woke up faced with the perennial debate of whether or not I should get out of bed at an ungodly hour and drive to…
WHEN MY EX-BOYFRIEND TOLD ME HE WAS SEEING SOMEONE ELSE, I felt the wind knocked out off me. I felt I was punched in the chest and I was literally gasping for air. I knew it was inevitable and yet then and there, I felt utter panic. It took me some time (and some glasses…