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\u266c
\nI want adventure in the great wide somewhere<\/em>
\nI want it more than I can tell<\/em>
\nAnd for once it might be grand<\/em>
\nTo have someone understand<\/em>
\nI want so much more than they’ve got planned<\/em>
\n\u266c<\/p>\n

It’s 1pm on a Sunday, and here I am panicking that my “life” is ending. Technically, my life isn’t ending, but I have been so consumed with work lately that I feel like I haven’t been actually\u00a0living<\/em><\/strong>. Weekends are supposed to be mine, to be lived fully, but I look at the clock and I’m reminded that I only have half a day left (of which I still have to squeeze in time to update EDI, but who am I to complain since a) I brought it upon myself and b) it’s only a one time thing) and I still haven’t done anything that is for me and me alone. So quick solution? Write something. Leave a mark and exert my me-ness to the world.<\/p>\n

It’s sad how “real life” for me is contained in only 2 out of 7 days a week. I know that’s how being an adult goes – responsibilities and whatnot. But part of me is still itching for something\u00a0more.<\/em> Something that will breathe life even into the hustle and the mundane. The commute alone drains me even before the actual work day, and I feel like a zombie – commute – work – commute – sleep – repeat. And I know I shouldn’t complain coz I have it much better than other people. I am thankful. Really, I am. But my heart is\u00a0also restless and antsy and I want to give way to my hopes and dreams even if I am told to just be content where I am.<\/p>\n

I guess that’s one of the reasons I love being away from Manila. I no longer have to limit myself to other people’s expectations of me. I can be me. And although one might argue that “you can still be you in Manila, Reg<\/em>“, it’s not that simple. “You’re overthinking, you should just speak up and voice these things out<\/em>“, but the moment you do, you’re classified as ungrateful, crazy,\u00a0or both.<\/p>\n

I am sorting out the next steps for the rest of my life. It hasn’t been as peachy as I’d hoped – it’s quite pricey too! – but I am determined as ever to take reins and direct its course. Because life\u00a0is<\/strong><\/em>\u00a0already happening as we speak. It\u2019s what we make of our time here that defines it.\u00a0The weekend might be ending, but my best possible life is just beginning. <\/p>\n

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