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HEY, WHAT’S UP BLOG? So much for daily logs, my last entry was last December. Meaning I\u2019ve gone through January without even posting an either sappy or hope-filled birthday entry<\/a>. But not to worry, even if January has passed, you can still expect a somewhat sappy yet hope-filled entry. Because, hey, if you can\u2019t be honest in your own blog, where else can you be, right? Well don\u2019t answer that, I\u2019m sure there\u2019s a lot of other avenues for that. Basically, shouldn\u2019t you be honest in everything that you do?<\/em> That one you can answer. Yep, it wasn\u2019t rhetorical. For a time, I believed that you should be in EVERYTHING. And then there was a time that I believed that maybe there are some things not worth revealing. Like what\u2019s the point in hurting other people? But then I realized that technically, you\u2019ve already hurt them. Maybe keeping it in will hurt them further. But then I was repetitively reminded that you should always keep your guard up and hold your cards extremely close. That it\u2019s better to deceive than to be deceived. But maybe that\u2019s not fair coz it\u2019s a different setting. But that doesn\u2019t really make sense, being totally transparent in one aspect of your life and totally closed off in the other. But maybe I\u2019m generalizing too much. Business is business and relationships are relationships. But what about the grey in between?! Agh, so confusing, man. Maybe I should treat them separately. And for the grey, figure out which weighs more \u2013 business or relationship. I don\u2019t know, that\u2019s the thing I\u2019ve been thinking about lately. I thought I had my stance all figured out, but then something from the past gets brought to light and I have my views all scrambled.<\/p>\n It comes with turning 29, I guess. Daniel Pink discusses 9-enders in his book WHEN saying that \u201cpeople are more apt to evaluate their lives as a chronological decade ends than they are at other times. 9-enders are particularly preoccupied with aging and meaningfulness, which is linked to a rise in behaviors that suggest a search for or crisis of meaning.\u201d O, pano ba yan?<\/em> More introspective posts to come. Haha! No seriously though. 2017 was shit while it happened but actually quite good looking back. I think it paved the way for some major realizations and changes to come this 2018. 2017 was the foundation and I hope \u2013 and plan – to build on it more this year.<\/p>\n For starters, I finally have enough courage to face buried issues head on. At times it wasn\u2019t even courage, some issues were just too big and imposing for me to runaway from. Some stemmed from guilt and shame, most from unprocessed hurt. It wasn\u2019t pretty. I found myself breaking down more times than ever. But I\u2019m glad I was able to get help \u2013 from friends, loved ones, and professionals<\/em>. Yup, I\u2019ve actually went to visit a counselor. I\u2019d say a therapist her business card doesn\u2019t really say that. I remember our first session wherein I was like \u201cI don\u2019t even know why I\u2019m here because I\u2019m a psych major, I know <\/em>all this shit.\u201d But sometimes you really need someone to help you take a step back and see things objectively. I have fitness coaches, why not have a life coach too? It may not be for everyone, but I\u2019m glad I went. It was very grounding for me. It was also a chance for me to calmly face issues I\u2019d rather not face at my own yet slightly expedited pace. This 2018, I plan on sorting out more of that emotional shit and facing both hurts and shadows I\u2019ve long since ignored<\/a>.<\/p>\n 2017 was also the year I saw a lot of friends get engaged, married or pregnant \u2013 and I ended up being single. To be honest, it\u2019s some scary shit. Like all those thoughts that what if I end up alone and what if I never find anyone. But then at the same time, I\u2019m like, I\u2019m pretty sure I wouldn\u2019t have been able to go to Europe and catch Rock Werchter and travel to Croatia and Myanmar on a spur if I had been otherwise. Give and take, I guess. What I took from 2017 was worth it though. I think. I hope. Oh god, I hope.<\/p>\n And as for what I\u2019m taking this 2018, here are some ~*life*~<\/em> updates:<\/p>\n Things I need to work on stat: finalize my cashflow so I can see if I can afford Zumba or a vacation. Really enjoy Zumba. And homg, of course I enjoy vacations. -> Edit: I signed up for Anytime Fitness! Go endorphins, I need you in my life. As for that vacation, I’m really considering something that’s “multi-purpose”, either a workshop or research. For what, I’ll keep to myself first. \ud83d\ude09 I’m targeting Siargao this Q2 and \u00a0fingers crossed, Europe in June-July (Rock Werchter 2018!!!). Let’s see how this goes!<\/p>\n I’m also thinking if I still want to pursue moving abroad. Yes. No. Maybe. Maybe the real question is what kind of life do I want to be living?<\/b> And what am I doing to achieve that? My recent trip to La Union (where the photo for this post was taken!) brought back these questions to the spotlight. But that’s for another post.<\/p>\n Hope you’re having a restful Sunday x<\/p>\n \n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" HEY, WHAT’S UP BLOG? So much for daily logs, my last entry was last December. Meaning I\u2019ve gone through January without even posting an either sappy or hope-filled birthday entry. But not to worry, even if January has passed, you can still expect a somewhat sappy yet hope-filled entry. 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