I’VE BEEN THINKING MORE AND MORE ABOUT MORTALITY. What for? You’re only thirty one. That’s precisely it. I’m thirty one and I don’t think I’ve thought about it enough. I don’t mean planning my funeral and what the afterlife holds. There’s not much detail to this “me thinking about mortality” actually, more of just a…
UNDER PRESSURE
HOW MUCH OF THE PRESSURE WE’RE FEELING IS ACTUALLY REAL? I ask because upon discussing why I don’t write as much as I would like to, it surfaced that the pressure of living up to “expectations” gets the better of me. Like what if what I write sucks? What if it doesn’t resonate with anybody…
Love Wins (And I Will Too One Day) – A Short Story
SINCE IT’S PRIDE MONTH, I am re-sharing a short story I wrote 5 years ago today. This was originally published in Thought Catalog and I have corrected some typos and made minor revisions here and there. As much as I read a lot, story telling is HARD. It’s something I definitely hope to work on…
WHAT I’VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT LATELY
– How everyone is carrying their OWN LOAD and just because you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it’s not there. – How TALKING is crucial and how LISTENING is just as important. But ultimately, it boils to UNDERSTANDING each other. – How someone giving up TRYING TO EXPLAIN or to understand pretty much signals the…
ON WHY’S AND LIVING
SOMETIMES WE GET SO USED TO HOW THINGS ARE THAT WE NO LONGER ASK WHY. I mean of course there are scientific truths that are just so universal that it’s better swallowed than asking why and getting a really long dissertation as a response, but living life is more art than science and it, to…
WHAT JUST HAPPENED?!
ANYONE ELSE END 2018 ON SUCH A HIGH only to have the first week of 2019 thrust you to rockbottom? 2019 (so far) had me exclaiming in disbelief/shock/exasperation, “anong nangyari?!!!“ far too many times in a short amount of time. I thought I was finally(!) in that elusive “good place” when November/December rolled out.. but then come…
ON MIDDLES (A YEAR END POST)
ON THE LAST DAY OF 2018, I look back on the year that was with lyrics from Ariana Grande: “that shit’s amazing”. Exactly a year ago, I referred to 2017 as shit while it was happening, actually great when looking back. I guess this realization became a guide for me as I lived out 2018.…
DEAR YOU (A CLOSING LETTER)
DEAR YOU, THIS LETTER HAS BEEN A YEAR IN THE MAKING. A year because this letter entails a certain finality that I’ve been avoiding, because my general fear of making the wrong decision sometimes paralyses me, and at the same time because this ultimately means letting YOU go, forealz. It took a year, but here…
ALLOW YOURSELF TO REST
THIS RAINY WEEKEND WAS A BLESSING TO ME. For someone who cannot and will not slow down, I was forced to take a break. My mind was all “go, you can do it, you can squeeze a million and one things to do today”, but my body was like, “nah” before completely shutting down. And it’s a…
LET’S TALK ABOUT GOD
HIGH UP ON THE THINGS YOU’RE NOT SUPPOSED TO DISCUSS with people you are not close with, and most definitely people you’ve just met, is RELIGION. But hey, if people can ask me why I’m single at almost 30 and if I’m worried about my biological clock ticking, then I can definitely talk about God.…
HALFWAY THERE
SOMETHING ABOUT JULY has got me feeling that anything and everything can happen. Beginning the second half of the year is like a somewhat clean slate, a midpoint that may or may not drastically change the course of the year. Maybe it’s wishful thinking. After all, I remember 15 years ago when I dubbed July…